Nightmare Man (for Dr. Liam T. Yore)

Nightmare Man

Strong is the privilege
of your masculinity
you did what you did
and you did it to me
and from your vantage point
you have the right to disagree
about my right to have a say
in what is done to my body

and your status is above me
and you don't like the word no
I'm expected to submit
just nod my head, do what I'm told
but I just shrink inside recoiling
from the ugliness I see
in the eyes of my abuser
staring holes right into me

how dare you look upon me
like you're capable of knowing
who you perpetrate your crime against
as if all of me's showing
see there's no amount of naked
that could teach you what I know
no extent of violation that
I cannot use to grow

and I'm soaring far above you
it could be dissociation
or it could be that I know
you cannot kill my inspiration
not my passion, or my kindness,
not my child-like demeanor
yes, you're a nightmare man
but I'm a master lucid dreamer

*I dedicate this poem to Dr. Liam T. Yore, the man who when trusted with my care, instead acted with an utterly perverse type of cruelty by using sexual humiliation to intimidate me after requesting ADA compliance for a serious allergy. I was not only physically harmed by this vicious assault on my body, privacy, humanity, and legal rights under the law; I was also so traumatized I have been terrified to seek medical attention when I have needed it since, which has compromised my health in serious ways. As of yet, Providence hospital has taken no meaningful action to discipline this twisted individual, or protect other women who are vulnerable to his attacks, which he justified because I was suffering from depression over a serious medical condition. Yes, I struggle with depression and anxiety. That does not entitle any man to rip my clothing off, even if he is a doctor. What he did to me was horrifying, unethical, and a violation of the law. I am a human being, and what he did was utterly inhumane. If Providence hospital continues to employ this monster, they are sending the message that some patients do not qualify for the Hippocratic Oath because they have the wrong kind of medical condition. I was his patient, and yet, he smiled as I sobbed and begged for mercy. He is also a man who enjoys violence, makes it his hobby, and blogged about how important it is for doctors to emotionally detach to make it easier to hurt their patients. This is a very sick man, who at the very least should be suspended without pay pending psychological evaluation for his discrimination against women, as well as people with depression, and for his obvious violent tendencies and aggressive behaviors. I can say this with certainty, regardless of whether or not Dr. Yore was ever prosecuted for sexual assault, you will never convince me that being held down and having my clothes ripped off wasn't just that.