Everything at Once

anger left unpurified
reborn into this form of mine
trying hard to leave it all behind

there's no self just particles
of karmic debt left to unfold
trying hard to just let it all go

maybe trying is the problem
I'm too focused on resolving
matters that effort can never change

I just need to sit and breathe
and find the faith to just believe
things will turn out how they're meant to be

then anger rises up again
I wish that I could be more zen
as my pulse races beneath my skin

sometimes I wish that I could cry
but when I do I want to die
pressured to just keep it all inside

I am everything at once
I'm the universal dunce
in my corner staring at the world

the only certainty is death
but here and now I find my breath
eyes half open looking at it all