up

I know I beat myself up
for not finding my voice when I was younger
busy learning the lessons that would
make me wiser and so much stronger

sometimes when I first wake up
I have trouble knowing where I'm living
my life has been so mixed up
not enough taking, too much giving

all I want is to be real
just to speak the things I feel
all I need is to be loved
here on earth not from above

you know that my mind's made up
got to do the things that I was born to
there's no way I will give up
after everything that I have gone through

sometimes I feel envious
but I can not dwell on those emotions
and so I pick myself up
and focus on my forward motion

all I want is to be real
just to speak the things I feel
all I need is to be loved
here on earth not from above